Already There

I first heard the song "Already There" by Casting Crowns months before I knew I had cancer.  I sang it and thought the words were powerful even to me who had little to worry about in my young life.  But the first time I heard the song after I was diagnosed, I knew it was a life changer and I really understood the words for the first time.  

Here is is the first verse:

Already There

"From where I'm standing Lord,

It is so hard for me to see where this is going

And where you are leading me.

I wish I knew how all my fears and all my questions are gonna play out,

In a world I can't control."

Ever feel like this?  I sure do.  Even now I do not understand why God had me place my life on hold.  I get frustrated and even angry some days and ask God what good could possibly come from something so bad. 

Here is more of the song:

"When I am lost in the mystery,

To you my future is a memory,

'Cause you are already there,

You are already there.

Standing at the end of my life

Waiting on the other side,

And you'er already there,

You'er already there."

This song helped me remember that God doesn't just know what is gonna happen to me, He is already in my future.  He is standing in heaven with His arms open to welcome me home.  And I do not need to  be angry or worry about my future because He is already there.